I have been so miserable for the past couple of weeks. Lately I haven't been able to stand up for more than 5 minutes without feeling like I need to throw up. I get scared that I am not doing something right because I feel so bad, but today I looked a bunch of comments online from other women who feel horrible and have many of the same symptoms. I just can't wait for this part of the pregnancy to be OVER! I don't know how people say you forget this sickness when its all over.
My husband has been so great though. He is so helpful and I can tell it hurts him to see me like this. He always checks to see if I need something to eat, and makes sure I am getting what I need. He even made a post on facebook asking people for advice for me because I have been feeling so bad. He is going to be such a good dad and I think thats why i am not that nervous about actually taking care of the baby because I know I will have such a good support system. I am more nervous about just getting through this pregnancy! I want this baby to be healthy and strong.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Am I Lazy or is this normal?
Lately I feel so awful, I can't even pull myself out of bed, except when I feel like I have to eat something for the baby. I have been feeling a little down about it, especially since my husband is off working all day to support our new family and I just lay in bed feeling like its the end of the world. I try to keep my mind of it, but its nearly impossible, when all I can think about is BABY and what kind of mother I am going to be. It is also difficult because I have InLaws, who I love, but who treat me like I am just being lazy and that its all in my head...this coming from a woman who was NEVER sick during pregnancy, and a man who has no idea what its like to grow another human being inside his body. My husband still has a little of his parents mindset, but luckily he is willing to listen to me, and will read up on pregnancy stuff along with me.
I was watching Dr. Phil last night about couple quarrels, I felt really grateful for the husband I have. I know he doesn't necessarily like that I am not doing much during my day, but he still comes home and asks me what I need and makes sure I am taking my pills. He checks up on me a lot, and I am thankful I don't have to do this alone, as many women out there do.
I also love the internet! I was looking up if other women felt the same as I do about feeling guilty about staying in bed during pregnancy and I found a TON of comments by women who feel the same. I especially loved reading this, which was in response to a women feeling exactly how I feel.
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You are NOT a bad mom!!
You are not lazy. You are not "doing damage" to your baby.
Extreme tiredness, nausea, and lack of appetite are all fairly normal parts of early pregnancy.
You write: physically, I feel so horrible and yet you also say you're lazy. Lets get this straight once and for all: You are not being lazy. Your body is telling you something, you need to listen to it. Your body is telling you what you need to do: you need to rest. Do what your body tells you: rest. Start off by taking two or three days totaly off and do nothing by sleep and relax.
Don't forget: not only are you building a whole new person, but you're also growing an extra organ to feed that person. That's hard work. Its no wonder your body is tired. Listen to your body. It knows what its doing."
After reading this I knew I wasn't the only one who was feeling this way. Many women go through hard pregnancies. I will still push myself to try and feel better so I can accomplish something around the house that needs to get done, but at the end of the day, I am building a person. A heart, lungs, a brain....and that's pretty amazing.
I love you baby! Even though you do look like an alien right now. ;)
I was watching Dr. Phil last night about couple quarrels, I felt really grateful for the husband I have. I know he doesn't necessarily like that I am not doing much during my day, but he still comes home and asks me what I need and makes sure I am taking my pills. He checks up on me a lot, and I am thankful I don't have to do this alone, as many women out there do.
I also love the internet! I was looking up if other women felt the same as I do about feeling guilty about staying in bed during pregnancy and I found a TON of comments by women who feel the same. I especially loved reading this, which was in response to a women feeling exactly how I feel.
"
You are NOT a bad mom!!
You are not lazy. You are not "doing damage" to your baby.
Extreme tiredness, nausea, and lack of appetite are all fairly normal parts of early pregnancy.
You write: physically, I feel so horrible and yet you also say you're lazy. Lets get this straight once and for all: You are not being lazy. Your body is telling you something, you need to listen to it. Your body is telling you what you need to do: you need to rest. Do what your body tells you: rest. Start off by taking two or three days totaly off and do nothing by sleep and relax.
Don't forget: not only are you building a whole new person, but you're also growing an extra organ to feed that person. That's hard work. Its no wonder your body is tired. Listen to your body. It knows what its doing."
After reading this I knew I wasn't the only one who was feeling this way. Many women go through hard pregnancies. I will still push myself to try and feel better so I can accomplish something around the house that needs to get done, but at the end of the day, I am building a person. A heart, lungs, a brain....and that's pretty amazing.
I love you baby! Even though you do look like an alien right now. ;)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
I am about 9 weeks pregnant and feel like CRAP
After marrying my husband, I learned to LOVE food. New flavors, new styles. There was so much to love about eating, and I was able to share that with the one I love.
NOW, I HATE FOOD and I HATE THAT I HATE FOOD! I am right in the middle of my sick stage of pregnancy and food is now a burden. I have to eat, but I can't just eat whatever I want. I survive off of crackers and toast and powerade. I don't know how I can do this for much longer.
It is so frustrating to feel so BLAH all the time.
Is this too much to ask for! This is all I want to be able to eat. COME ON BABY, Let me eat!
NOW, I HATE FOOD and I HATE THAT I HATE FOOD! I am right in the middle of my sick stage of pregnancy and food is now a burden. I have to eat, but I can't just eat whatever I want. I survive off of crackers and toast and powerade. I don't know how I can do this for much longer.
It is so frustrating to feel so BLAH all the time.
Is this too much to ask for! This is all I want to be able to eat. COME ON BABY, Let me eat!
When we found out.
I guess I should start by writing a little bit about how I felt when I found out I was pregnant. My husband, Brett, and I had been trying for a little over a year to get pregnant. And by trying I mean, no forms of birth control and focusing more around the times that I could be ovulating. Unfortunately I am not the lucky recipient of a normal 28 day cycle. My period had a mind of its own, and that makes planning on when to conceive each month very difficult. I had talked to a friend about taking ovulation tests to see if that would help pinpoint ovulation, but trying that for a couple months never seemed to work....OR SO WE THOUGHT.
The month of November, I was taking ovulation tests and we were having sex about every other day during that time, but the ovulation tests came up negative every time as usual. It was to the point where after all the hustle and bustle of the holidays were over I was going to get on some sort of pill that would help me Ovulate. In putting everything in the back of my mind for the next month, I stopped concentrating on my period and pregnancy. The first week in December hit and I noticed that I was having another long period. I had had a 40 day delay in my period the previous month so I really didn't think anything of it, but for some reason, I woke up on Sunday December 6th and decided to take a pregnancy test.
I was so use to seeing only one line show up, meaning the test is negative, so when both lines appeared I was in complete shock. I stood there for a second, then ran to grab another pregnancy test. That one came out positive too! I could not believe it. 3 or 4 minutes passed and then it hit me. Tears came pouring out and all I could think about was telling Brett, so I ran downstairs to where he was on the couch. He told me later that he thought someone had died when I came down the stairs, looking the way I did. I curled up to him on the couch and pulled out the test, and we both looked at eachother and cried. We both couldn't believe it was our turn to be parents! That Sunday, and every Sunday after we look at all the cute babies at church and can't wait till the little one comes out!
The month of November, I was taking ovulation tests and we were having sex about every other day during that time, but the ovulation tests came up negative every time as usual. It was to the point where after all the hustle and bustle of the holidays were over I was going to get on some sort of pill that would help me Ovulate. In putting everything in the back of my mind for the next month, I stopped concentrating on my period and pregnancy. The first week in December hit and I noticed that I was having another long period. I had had a 40 day delay in my period the previous month so I really didn't think anything of it, but for some reason, I woke up on Sunday December 6th and decided to take a pregnancy test.
I was so use to seeing only one line show up, meaning the test is negative, so when both lines appeared I was in complete shock. I stood there for a second, then ran to grab another pregnancy test. That one came out positive too! I could not believe it. 3 or 4 minutes passed and then it hit me. Tears came pouring out and all I could think about was telling Brett, so I ran downstairs to where he was on the couch. He told me later that he thought someone had died when I came down the stairs, looking the way I did. I curled up to him on the couch and pulled out the test, and we both looked at eachother and cried. We both couldn't believe it was our turn to be parents! That Sunday, and every Sunday after we look at all the cute babies at church and can't wait till the little one comes out!
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